At ladies hostel, some of the inmates were lecturers in an engineering college, some were students doing their professional courses,and the rest of them worked at an airport. With the help of recommendations of some priests, my aunt managed to admit me in that hostel. The warden, who was a nun allotted a single room for me, since she did not want me to share the room with those seniors. I was studying in seventh standard then.
As a child with all the naughtiness, friends of my age were few for me. So, I did not want to stay in a residential school. I liked the idea of staying in a working women’s hostel. The idea of the new room, and those senior hostel mates excited me. There were some special rules for me, like compulsory study time and I was not allowed to visit other rooms and all.
After reaching there, hundreds of young hostelmates looked at me with extreme enthusiasm. (The question in their eyes had been ‘what this little kid is doing here?’). It made me little nervous, all the excitement were drained out from me. When I overheard they worried about my silence, I relaxed, and went to talk to them.
Despite of all these restrictions, there was an immense amount of freedom for me, as a child. I was glad for the reason that I did not have to stay in my relative’s place because it was not like my home. Born as a single child of working parents, I felt very difficult to adjust with them.
My room had been in between the rooms of the ladies who were teaching in an engineering college.
There I met Sonal Ayyappan, , she had been working in an engineering college, I used to call her Sonal chechi, who was around 12 years elder to me. So the bond between us was more like an elder sister.
To my surprise, Sonal chechi spoke to warden and took a special permission so that I could enter her room. Obviously this made me very happy.
On a weekend, I visited her room. There was a new visitor in her room, her name was Selvy and was her colleague. Then Sonal chechi introduced me to her as the youngest fellow of the hostel.
The days passed with my new hostel life.
One day, While I was sitting inside Sonal’s room playing game in her phone, Selvy chechi came there.
Selvy spoke with her delightful voice to Sonal Chechi, about a visit she did to her home town. “I boarded into the bus, and bought ticket to Munnar. I engulfed myself in the greenery on the way to Moonar. An old lady sat beside me, and started talking to me. Initially it was usual things a passenger would ask to her fellow passenger.”
Their conversations made me curious to know further. I stopped my game in the phone.
Selvy continued, “Later I don’t remember anything other than that old lady asked me to board down at the stop. Automatically I stood up from my seat, my eyes transfixed on that old lady. And she was to board down from the bus and I was following her.”
“Suddenly the conductor spoke to me in a thundering voice, ‘Your ticket is to Moonar’. All of a sudden I gained my consciousness and realized what was going to happen. The old lady stared harshly at the conductor, because the conductor understood the lady’s intention.” Selvy sighed happily and concluded that it was because of that man, she was there talking to both of us.The old lady was trying to take her to somewhere else. Then no one knows what would have been her future then.
Did that lady hypnotize her? Or gave her something to smell, which made her drowsy? I did not ask her that, but I made my mind to deal with that kind of situations.
Then I came back to the game. And the phone was locked!. I thought to unlock it myself rather than asking Sonal chechi to do it. Four or six times I tried, as the result SIM card was also blocked. I looked Sonalchechy with a sorry in my eyes. Sonalchechi did not say a word to me but her expressions made me feel terrible and I left the room.
Well,correcting and guiding me, was Sonalchechi’s favorite hobby, not by scolding or advising me, but by not talking to me, till I correct myself. And for me she was more than a sister. Even my mom wonder the way we share the bond.
That evening passed, and next day Sonal chachi went to the temple without telling me, I went to Selvi chechi’s room. She comforted me saying that Sonal chechi’s phone got repaired. As we started speaking, she curiously wanted to know the feelings, difficulties and pains of a girl child staying in a hostel.
For me, I was glad, doing things independently, meeting different people in hostel and out of that few were close to me, and above all Sonalchechy is there. And more over to that there was no need to loose in the fights I used to have with my cousin brothers while staying in their house.
I felt that Selvy also considered me as her younger sister, also become a chechy to me. I smiled at her as I was so happy.
I scanned her room. My eyes caught the glimpse of the book titled, “The Brief History of Time by Stephen Hawking”. Few words struck me ‘the Big Bang’ and ‘Black Holes’.
I asked her about the Big Bang, She began to tell about it with great eagerness.
‘’In the beginning of time, the matter of the Universe was concentrated to a single point, it exploded at some instant and that theory about the origin of the Universe is called the Big Bang.’’
It was for the first time, I heard a scientific explanation for the origin of the Universe. It made me further inquisitive to know about it.
Next question came, as that was my favorite hobby, ‘’and the Black Holes?’’ ‘’It’s one of the stages of the death of the star, Because of its high gravity even the light cannot escape from it. The formation of the black hole is based on the mass of the star. If the mass is above Chandrasekhar limit, that is 1.44 times the solar mass, the black holes are formed.’’ She said.
‘’What would happen to Sun?’’ I smiled at her. “As its hydrogen burning stops, its outer layer behind to expand near the earth’s orbit and the stage is called red giant.”
I was excited with the scientific thoughts bombarded by her. It encouraged me ask more questions. And the session continued.
I asked her, ‘Can I borrow this book?’
She was very eager give me that book and also reminded me that it was borrowed from a friend.
Sonalchechi started talking to me, and every thing become normal.
The school week days started. Afterwards, when I just search the book on my table it wasn’t there, I thought as I did not take it to school, it would be misplaced some where in the room. I have decided to search the book on the weekend.
Weekend’s was my super cleaning days. I enjoyed cleaning in a single day, rearranging the cupboard and all. Inspiration,as usual came from Sonal chechi. Her room used to be extra clean. I would create that feel for a single day or may be few hours. On that day, I realized that my book had been missing. But where did I kept it?
On the same day, Selvy chechi asked me, “Allu, where’s the book?” I replied, “I would return the book on Saturday”. By that time I made up my mind to buy a new book.
The next school day, I did not take my cycle to school, to go to book stall after the class, I decided to walk one hour. And in the evening, I went to bookstall, where I used to visit with my parents, and this time I was alone.
The Owner of the shop looked at me, “Is there Brief History of Time by Stephen Hawking?” “No”, He replied with no emotion. My heart sank into the earth. And noticing my face he replied, “I could place an order for the book if you want but will take few days to get it”. And I ordered with a feeling of success.
Waiting for the return bus to the hostel, as I cycles daily to the school, I hardly had experienced this rush, I felt like I might be sandwiched inside it and did not enter.
I got late, had no option but to enter a jeep (bus had been a better choiceL). Finally managed to reach the hostel by 6 30.
For my happiness the warden, my “beloved”, short tempered nun, was standing near the gate. ‘‘Where were you?’’ I looked straight into her eyes, “I went to buy a book”. ‘‘Who gave you permission?’’.
I bowed my head. She screamed, “You can leave, the hostel tomorrow with your box and bed”
I comforted myself with a proverb in my head, “Korakkum Patti Kadikilya“ (Barking Dog Never Bites), And went inside my room.
Days passed, Saturday, the day I committed to give back the book, my alarm was ringing at 5.45 am, usual time Selvy chechi leaves the hostel to her home. She will be back only on Monday, the day I get the book from the shop. After switching off the alarm, I continued sleeping. I woke up slowly by 8 and went to the mess hall. Alas! To a great surprise, in the mess hall Selvy chechi is pouring tea from the kettle!. She didn’t go! I ran back to hide myself away from her, I decided to take a shower. In between my shower, she called and said something to me. Among my thoughts, I did not hear what she said or I didn’t want to. After my shower, I went inside my room.
The book was lying on my bed!
Tears of joy, anger, guilt filled my throat…..
The days went on as usual. I tried to avoid Selvy chechy after that incident.
On a calm weekend, Selvi chechy called me. “Did I do any mistake?” I am afraid but didn’t remember anything. Any way I reached there, recollecting the past days incidents. Again surprising me, Selvi chechi poured her unconditional sisterly affection on me. And called me into her room, and gave me a pizza, as we were having it together. She spoke to me in her usual captivating voice, “Allu, I’m vacating hostel “. That phrase used to make me terribly sad. But then I was neither much sad nor much happy. Not because of the reason that I did not like her, but I could not recover from my sadness from not telling her the truth about the book. Till then I could not forgive myself.
And I asked her. “Why is that chechy?” She replied “I got a job in DRDO”
DRDO? I asked her, Defense Research Development Organization, as a scientist, I congratulated her. But even then I was confused to say sorry for the previous incident. As reading my mind she started saying that she did not mean to make me sad by hiding the fact that, she got the book from the reading room. She felt angry about my carelessness since the book could be lost. She just wanted me to tell her the truth.
It is my habit to forget and search for things. But since it was her book, I took care of it. I did not remember keeping the book anywhere else other than in my room. How could it reach to study room?
She made me realize the importance of telling the truth as soon as possible. I did not justify myself by telling about my idea of buying the new book. We spoke some time and I went to my room with heaviness in my heart.
The next day, she was all set to leave the hostel. She visited our corridor, where me and Sonalchechi stayed. I was standing beside my door. She looked both of us with tears in her eyes, and left the corridor. Sonal chechi looked and said to me, “She was a nice woman with lots of struggles, let her live happily “. All the love and affection she had given to me was flashed in my mind.
Alka Jeena Rajeev